quickie.

i'm super frustrated.
grr.

it's finals week.
im stressed.
grr.


buuut going out to celebrate a birthday.
yay.

bai.

i love sweet tea

today calls for a self-care activity. so i painted my nails in the yard with a big ass glass of arizona sweet tea. hurray for sunshine!
i deemed a self-care activity necessary not because school is stressful.. but because i felt so on edge today. I think i may have been short with people, and i feel bad.
so to relieve the tension i painted my toenails with sparkles. i now have disco balls on my feet =)

I think i did okay in my lab today.. now i just have to do okay in the final next week. :S
the only things that stand between me and summer are 2 exams - one lab - and some piddly little assignments. So while i think in have the motivation i'm going to go work on those piddle little assignments, so i can watch ANTM tonight.

toodles! :)

Wait.

I can hear ticking clocks,
Running rampant in Me,
chiming in apogee
Waiting for the cynergy
Of her and me waiting on the light
And I never say goodnight Never say that i'm always right

Now in you girl I'm consent to drown
You're High and Im so Down
This Night'll end sooner
But much sooner now
Im awake in you and You're Asleep in me
All the things i'll never be
Make me Wonder could you see And I Said

Wait, till i hit the ground Harder
Wish i could Wait, To i could hear your heartbeat fast
Wish i could wait Till i missed her flavor
My days are numbered here and i dont want to be the last one home
don't want to be the last one home

Though Im weak inside
I'm thriving just the same
Still Calling out your name
Wondering who it is that i should blame
Stabbing Hard and Burried Conciousness and fear
Forgetting others i hold Dear
Wontcha maybe could you hear And I said To

Wait, till i hit the ground Harder
Wish i could Wait, To hear your heartbeat fast
Wish i could wait Till i missed her flavour
My days are numbered here and i dont want to be the last one

Home no no no the last one home
'n i said: There you are baby
waiting on the sun
just Staring at the sky said
"When will he be done"
and i said there you are baby
just waiting on the sun
staring at the sky said "when will he be done"
"when will he be done"

and i wish i could wait,
Till i see you shaking
wish i could wait to pull out of this one fast

wish i could wait till i taste your flavour
and maybe i can savour every last drop
and i said Wait, till i hit the ground Harder
Wish i could Wait, to hear to hear your heartbeat fast
Wish i could wait to see you shaking
My days are numbered here and i dont want to be the last one Home
the last one home
the last one home..

Art Therapy

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April 16, 2010.

i understand the nursing shortage....

I hate how i'm stressing out, but have ZERO motivation at the same time.
none.
notta.
zilch.

I could easily go to bed right now, but for some reason (whether it's because i'm used to it, or because its a norm for nursing students) i can't be in bed before... 12.
le sigh.


as of right now im putting my head down and barreling my way to the end of this semester. sort of like running a 4oo. rounding the final turn; i can see the end but its seems so freakishly far away. my legs hurt, my arms hurt..basically everything from my neck down is numb. just keep pumping my arms... eventually ill get to the end.. where i will proceed to pass out on the grass and suck in air.

looking forward to SUMMER.

my little zoob zoob

"come here my little zoob zoob"
that's what a patient at the VA said to me yesterday when he wanted me to see pictures of him from his time in korea. He then proceeded to tell me to not settle for the good looking man you see in pictures. "marry the man that can provide for you and take care of you, the man that loves you".
Very true sir. This guy was a sweetie, warning me that when i took his tempuratue that it would be over 100, becuase two student nurses were with him. what a guy. haha.

I had another patient that said that "God has given me all these extra years after my heart attack. I can't waste them." also very true. every morning when we wake up, just think, God has given me another day. Make the best of it. This guy was so positive. I want to be like that.

"ignore what bad has happened and don't let them ruin the good that will"

...There's no feeling, like the feeling you get, when a patient you are caring for, smiles at you, even though he is not doing well. Even though it sucks that the best you can do is smile back, their returning wink makes it a little better.

So thank you patients of P1 semester: the biter, the winker, the difficult, the joker, the talker.

thanks for teaching me.

happy little pink car of nursing.

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

dancing

i really like dancing.
im not very good at it, i never (okay for like two years) did dance lessons, but i love it. west coast swing dancing. that is so fun. I'm learning more and somewhat improving, but all in all, its just fun to dance.

If i wasn't half way on my way to being a nurse, id want to be a dancer.. preferably her.
hahaha.